Sex Not So Good - ......said it just to make him hurt as much as he'd made me hurt when he called me those names and said such terrible things...I told him I just acted like I'd enjoyed sex the night before...

Remember the Rape - ...does my rape have anything to do with my current marital (or mental) issues?...

The Rape - ...I wanted to say, "No No No!" but I thought it was way too late now and I was already ashamed and I felt stupid that it had come to this...

Haunted by a Memory - ...but I also think I use sex to validate myself. Still.

Sex Was Bad - ...He was sweet right after, but said he didn't want to feel this way again - what "way" was he talking about?...

Opals and Roses - ...Didn't he "punish" me during sex just three nights ago? What am I thinking?...

Who's Warped? - ...says that I never got over the rape OR the fact that my dad didn't talk to me about it, that I hate my rapist and therefore, my relationship with him is wrapped up in my warped view of men in general...

Rape Secret - ...So my question is, WHY THE HELL DIDN'T ANY OF MY DAMN COUNSELORS JUST GIVE ME THIS LITTLE BIT OF INFORMATION YEARS AGO WHEN IT WOULD HAVE HELPED?!...