Unfinished Note
Early February, 2009
This is a "stream of consciousness" entry. The idea is to write until you feel like you're finished, but edit nothing out.
Doo doo doo dah dah dah is all I want to say to you - a doo doo -Ha Ha, you said doo doo! :)
In a pretty good mood although I am feeling very challenged to be Mom this year while Will's gone. I guess it's a test of the emergency broadcasting system.
Can I do this alone, with Marc, alone, for one year? Will I help my son or will it hurt him? Is he going to continue taking drugs or will it all end?
What is going to happen to our marriage over the next year? Will he come home angry and drunk again? Or will he come home in the mood he's leaving with?
I feel better when I pray. I feel less alone and more capable. Know what? I prayed for Will and I to work out our problem - More specifically, I prayed for him to work out his abusive deal and for me to make a wise decision.
It's like I told him - he's leaving on an unfinished note.
I'm going to travel this year - Maybe even to Australia. We'll see.
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