Nothing For Me Here
November 14, 2008
Over dinner, Will said that Obama is going to have us (military) on welfare in 4 years. I said that I thought he was jumping the gun and we should let it play out a while before drawing any conclusions. Will started turning red and began talking about our money situation and how irresponsible with our money that I had been. I asked him how we went from talking about national policy to his opinion of how I've handled our money.
He angrily said that we already lived on welfare once during Clinton's presidency and it was going to happen again. I said he was entitled to that opinion, but I disagreed and then (foolishly?) added that he cannot see into the future anyway. I said I agreed that it was getting harder financially for everyone, but I thought - I got cut off there.
I didn't get to answer because he started to say, "So you think that - "and I cut him off saying, "Are you telling me what I think?" (cause remember, he didn't know what I thought. I hadn't had a chance to tell him.) He said, "I'm asking a question! So you think - " and I cut him off saying "Questions don't start with 'So you think'."
He said something about having to write a book to not be cut off mid-sentence, and stormed out of the house saying, "I'm going to go work in the goddam shed because once again, there's nothing in here for me. I come in here to relax and I can't. Thanks, Kellie," and shut the sliding door hard.
Good.
You know what? My heart is beating fast, I'm feeling anxious, but I know I did the right thing. The only reason he couldn't relax in here is because I wanted to express an opinion different from his. The only reason I'm not yet relaxed is because it's probably not over. Overall, he's made himself feel a certain way and I came out feeling like I stood my ground. Who's better off?
Do I really care that he wouldn't hear my opinion? Not anymore. I don't care if he hears my opinion or not - he obviously heard my words about to be different from his, and that is what's important to me right now.
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