Good Advice
The good advice comes from Bluelady, and this entry is the first of my Bluelady Board Meetings. Bluelady is my muse, but she's made up of several different entities. Maybe I'll explain it better at a later date.
Until then, the good advice is to stop leaping ahead. Start right here, right now, with me. Stay out of everyone else's head and follow my own path.
Panic Attack
November 8, 2008
Okay. What is causing this anxiety? Why is my heart racing?
Am I crazy? What do I DO? But maybe that's the wrong question - maybe it is what to think. What to contemplate. What to synthesize?
My circle. Synthesize my circle.
[At this point, the familiar feelings take over and then the words seep into my mind...]
Counter-clockwise. Against the clock. Turn back time. Simpler - You're currently rushing forward into facelessness. Turn back the clock. Find your truth.
Connect to yourself, here and now in this worldspace. Start with YOUR thoughts. Start with you. Then turn back the clock.
Spin it backwards. What are you turning to? What are you turning from? You are suffering from lack of connection. You've disconnected from your SENSES.
Your SENSES are yours and no one else's. You must take steps backward to move into the future whole. You must go backwards to move forward.
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