I Forget to Breathe
December 1, 2004
The words around the self-portrait say:
- Forget to breathe
- Struggle Through
- Misstep
- Falling
- Sun doesn't exist
- Nose won't run
- Can't think
- Can't concentrate
- Formidable Enemy
- Buzzing
- Spinning
- Fwooshing
- Too bright
- Eyes hurt
- Tummy Sick
- Miserable
At this time, Will was in Iraq fighting the war. I was worried for Will, worried for myself, worried for our boys. I though I was finally losing it.
We had moved to North Carolina one month before Will left for Iraq. There was NO ONE near me who I loved (well, besides our boys who are children!) and that, topped with aggravation from a sociopathic neighbor, aggravated my Depression.
I eventually found out that many of the symptoms I was experiencing were due to clogged sinuses; an MRI showed mucus backed up almost to my brain. If you feel like this, check your sinuses first (even if you can breathe freely like I could, those boogers could still be stuffed in your head!)
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