Choices
April 3, 2001
I think today is about Choices [refers to Courage to Change book].
I am smoking again. I am feeling its effects. Tired. Not focused. Sick. I have to quit. I even smoke when I don't want one. In fact, I don't believe I've CRAVED one yet.
Why do I smoke? Its killing me. My house stinks, my eyes burn. It is a death choice.
I know I can make it without smoking. It's not that scary anymore. I will quit when I get done at this table this morning.
Dream: Every time I took off my pants, a guy came running. It scared me, but I don't know why I was taking off my pants. I was trying to be some sort of inspiration to people, but I couldn't reach everyone. One guy kept rolling his eyes.
One guy was going to throw away a great PT test. I asked him, "Is it important? Will it help your kids understand who you are right now when they see it in 20 years? Keep it." Weird dream.
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