Introduction to Pauline
I've always thought that the "missing" element of prayer is listening. Why do we ask people for answers and then listen, but when we ask God for answers, we don't even try to hear what God has to say to us? Pauline is my guardian angel. Until this prayer, I didn't know I had a guardian angel, or at least, a specific guardian angel. I'm so glad I found out.
August 11, 1999
Dear God,
Where do I go from here? Do I go to work with Mr. F.? Will that help? Should I spend this time at home?
My child, you are not alone in your wonderings. Many people wonder when to take the next step.
Many hearts work for God yet many do not KNOW it. You know you work for God so why not let Him tell you where to go and what to be. Then there is no guilt. God warns us to follow His path or be broken from Him. Do not fear your path laid out for you. Follow God. His signs are readily available. Look around you. Life is here in this room in this home. Embrace it and God's love will turn you toward Paradise.
Does that mean I shouldn't pursue my business?
Your business is God's business. You are special in His eyes, and for now, embrace these tidings: Fear not for your safety. Fear not for money. Needs will be met. Do business for happiness, NOT for guilts. That will only cause more guilts. Enjoy what He has given you. "Thank you for your blessings" means nothing unless you realize what your blessings are.
Slow down to see them. Take in all that is yours and you will inherit all that is good.
Life is not meant to be mindlessly passed through, but cherished. Every moment, every word, every home you call home is a gift from God. Never forget where you are right now. You're right - as long as you live you will have THIS and nothing less. And THIS is a gift. Appreciate it. Use it. Challenge yourself to remain on track with God and His Love.
Who are you?
Pauline.
Can I see you?
How can you see what you cannot but feel? My place is not in proving. You are proving, I am Being. Try Being for awhile. Be still. Be gracious. Be kind. All will come.
No, Patience is not one of your strong points. Bluntness turns your head. How to be - What to do - How to do it - All answers come but not when you want so you look for other things to do, other things to be. Be you now. Be Mama. Be Wife - supporter, counselor, worshipper of God. Trust in Him. Trust in Him.
Are you angry?
Yes I am angry. You are too self-righteous to know you are developing attitudes that will harm you. Examine yourself. Too terrible for you fear too much. You create havoc. You create wastes of time and place.
It is hard to be one who is gracious when you are turning away from God. It is hard to be happy when your attitude is one of distaste for your situation.
You are here NOW for a reason. Use your NOW and that reason will become apparent.
Never trust in tomorrows. Only trust in God. Crazy ideas of doing more to find answers are not working. Do LESS and receive God's goodness.
I am here I see you I feel you I know you You can know God like that too if you will just shut off all of your "DO's"!
Okay, Pauline
No - not okay. Frustrated with yourself is not going to get you through this. Confidence in God will do that. You are headed for a tough time should you not turn around and refocus on the importance of being. Period.
Enjoy, Kellie. Don't put off enjoying life for the chance to be happy tomorrow. Happiness is here today. Grab it.
I will go. You are tiring. I love you, My Lamb. Never forget that. My harshness is not a threat or a complaining. Take off the blinders Child. Love today.
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