Couldn't Tell
July 7, 1998
I couldn't tell 'cause no one would understand.
Me and Meme were already on the outs - various things, but I remember her telling me [the rapist] was too old. To stay away from him. Now her idea had come true. Even if I told her, I thought that "I told you so" would be the answer and she would be more disappointed in me than before.
I cut out of the cornfield and walked the road back to Nana's house. I think I ate some ice cream. The other kids weren't there anymore. Couldn't tell her either. My grandmother?! No way. Besides, I read in my journal that me and Nana were sorta on the outs too.
Why Keep Rape Secret?
I was ashamed, felt responsible, felt my mom would be disappointed in me,.... Each rape victim has her own reasons. I hope that if it ever happens to you, you report it right away!
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