Detachment
February 21, 1996
So much hurt, but I don't want to give up on him. I worry that Al-Anon, by making me happy, will encourage him to drink.
He won't have to worry about MY reaction to his drinking, so WHY NOT DRINK?
But then, I see when he is using me for the excuse to drink. And he did it just while ago because I don't know how to react when I know he's planning to drink.
I need to PLAN how to react to his drinking so I am not his excuse. But how?
It hurts to bite my tongue and say nothing. I want him to hurt too, but his hurt is his reason for drinking. He already hurts.
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