Susanna's Story of Abuse
I've been with a man over 8 years. To be honest, I should've left before our three kids were born.
He is an alcoholic, home body, and introvert. He shows a different story in front of others. Only a select few have seen his actions. He blames me for everything, tells me I'm a bad mom, an ugly wife, lazy, no job, retarded, cunt, whore, loser, no friends, mental.
So, after a night of fueled arguments and put downs, he tore my pajamas and bruised my arm. Now today he's all quiet and docile.
I know the pattern. I never get a sorry for anything, everything is my fault...
Some days I feel like I will snap and harm him in rebellion. I've put up with so much - I'm so sick of his harm. He controls the money, he says he will take my kids of whom I take such good care. I've lost myself - I've let a man take over and rule my life.
I need to get out... I need to start new... Ughh. It always feels like there is no good time to leave. He ruins every holiday... All the time.
How Susanna Found Out She Was Being Abused
After numerous calls to police, talking with abuse shelters and also reading online.
Words Susanna Chose to Describe Her Abusive Experience
Trapped, Ugly and Confused
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